2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
- Fear of dying all alone.
- Not really sure how this one got started. Maybe I'm just that needy. I think it's just endlessly heartbreaking when I hear about people who are found dead in their homes days or weeks after they have expired. Did NO ONE care enough to wonder where they were? Didn't ANYBODY notice that they hadn't heard from their friend/mom/brother/cousin in the past couple of days?? It just seems so lonely and isolated to leave the world like that. And I desperately don't my life to end that way.
- Fear of falling.
- I am super clumsy. Mostly because I just plow through whatever it is I'm doing like a bull in a china shop. I'm not delicate in ANYTHING that I do, so I tend to trip a lot. Bump into a lot of things. Bang my elbow on stuff. Stub my toes on furniture.... The list goes on and on. As graceful as I am (ha!), I am always holding my breath when I feel my balance start to go. I just KNOW that one of these times I will fall and break a bone. I've never broken a major bone (pinky toes don't count as real breaks), but I hear that is extraordinarily painful. Add in the fact that I am super obese, and the possible complications from an injury caused by a fall multiply greatly. I'm just always scared that I will fall, break something, and wind up being immobile. That's a very scary prospect.
- Fear of disappointing the people I love.
- This may seem silly to most people, but for me, it is VERY real. I don't have any fears other than the 2 I listed already. But thinking that I am going to disappoint somebody important to me cripples me psychologically. It shuts me down and I can't function. If I know that someone I love is upset with me, or disappointed with me, or is ashamed of me... my day is completely ruined. Count me out until tomorrow, because I am so ashamed of myself for hurting someone, that I am useless for the rest of the day :(
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